RDJ`s Blogs

November 15, 2007

finally, i made my own decision, my final decision, after a few stages of hard consideration, i decide to do this… actually, i never ever want to do this,  even once in my life, but now, the time is getting closer every day, and it push me to do it to you … I`m sorry, i know, it`s not what you hope, but for your info, i don`t want to do this too, especially to you… i hope you know the reason although i know u will never ever read my blog, i hope u will read my blog one day and knowing the reason, the real reason.. , but if you don`t read, well, i will consider that as my luckiness, maybe u will hate me, will make me as an enemy of your life, and don`t want to know me again.. yup pathetic but never mind, that`s my hope,   not to know each other again,  maybe that`s an only and the best way,i know i were came in a wrong time… if i didn`t came in a wrong time, maybe all of these things would never happened to us, and we wouldn`t  knowing each other until this time…well, can`t blame the time, time uniting  and time parting, time giving and time taking, time remembering and time forgetting, time blaming and time forgiving…

in one time i really really hate you, can`t stop to blame you for all of this, but in another time, i really care for you, i really really do, and can`t stop blaming myself.. hope you know this, or maybe u already know ?? and u keep this in your silence ? like usual..well, don`t care what`s your answer, that isn`t important (Again).. now…continuing to life in our own ways, that is the best way out..  Forgive me dear….with all of my tears.. forgive me…i had enough of you. It’s as high as a mountain and harder to climb.

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