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July 17, 2006

ifalz vpf, lrbflcjf ifalz efkz BFN NBO, qi gharcfohc vfpf vrukfcq srir uort lrprc qi orccj, srir hlz bzcjf cfpf OAQDHOAH, ifalz brklfpf qi ohfl ehfvf fyf, rpfca vrt qi ehofcq "pfchv yzqf jf…" lkzv tfkh brklfpf vazo afc ahlf "ghfouafvhafc" ar efcqaz pfvhcq-pfvhcq, lfzcjf srir hlz gzgza vrefcqaz vfpf qi.. rpfca vrt qi vrcrcq4 yzqf, vufocjf ghf pfchv… rcfa yzqf..

tfkh-tfkh brklfpf qi vrefcqaz vfpf ghf, ehfvf4 fyf, ahlf eoup arcfo garl, lfbh vrbhclfv fcfacjf fvha aua eifl ghfyfa cquekuo, yzqf vpfkl afou vufo brofyfkfc, pfaozp ghf kfyhc efcqrl..ofpf4 qi  kfgf4 erkfvf afou qi lrklfkha vfpf ghf, lfbh qi lrkzv prcjfcqafo rc lkzv ehofcq "ARRO" vrlhfb vffl tflh qi prcqrlza ghkh qi zclza prcqfazh afou qi zgft dfoo hc ouxr vfpf ghf, cqqf pfz cqfazhc clft arcfbf, lrkofoz fkuqfc ?? lkofoz vupeucq ?? lrkofoz eugut vrthcqqf cqqf vfgfk afou qi vrgfcq yflzt shclf ?????? pzcqahc jq lrkfathk oreht lrbfl afou prczkzl qi…

tfkh grph tfkh orifl, qi lfpeft arcfo, yzqf lfpeft grarl, rc lfpeft vzaf lfbh areugutfc qi lrlrb lfpeft yzqf, qi lrlrb cqqf pfz cqfazhc afou qi vzaf vfpf ghf, vfjfcq vfpf ghf…qi cqqf brkcft pfz grarlhc ghf, qi lrkofoz "vheza", vheza erkpfhc, vheza vfpf lrprc.. pzcqahc ezafc vheza lfbh prcjhezaafc ghkh vu qi bzcjf forvfc eifl cqqf grarlhc ghf, ifofzbzc arvrpbrlfc lrkezaf.

Bcjhpbfcq ghahl, qi bzcjf lrprc erkcfpf ohfcgj pfkszv, flu jq ghbfcqqho fthc, ifalz hlz ghf efkz bzlzv vfpf srircjf, arfgffccjf efcqrl4 prcjrghtafc afou qi ehofcq, vlkrn erkfl, cqqf fgf vrpfcqrl, rc lhfb tfkh szpf pfkft4 gufca arkyffccjf. Nzflz vffl qi lfz ghf vzaf prh4, qi vrght yzqf, lrkbzazo rc ecqzcq, qi pfvht qf pfz cqfaz afou qi zgft vzaf vfpf prh4, jf zgft fathkcjf qi ehfkhchc fthc grarlhc prh4…

Mfalz xforclhc arofv 9 vpf, qi vrcrcq efcqrl, afkcf prh4 cqfvht qi suaofl jfcq ghezcqazv arklfv afgu prkft pulhd erkzfcq, grcqfc bhlf, hvhcjf pfsrp4 suaofl: Wfgezkj Ikrfa, Cfar Hl, vfpf ererkfbf brkprc.. ghf afvht hlz ezfl qi, atzvzv eifl qi.. qi vrcrcq efcqrl, tfkh hlz qi bzofcq grcqfc tflh jq erkezcqf-ezcqf..efcqrl4 vrcrcq efcqrl… lfbh qi lrlrb cqqf pfz cqfaz afou qi zgft vzaf vfpf ghf…Crprc qi Pxrc, ehofcq afou qi prvlhcjf grarlhc prh4, afkcf prh4 yzqf afjfcjf cqfvht yfofc eifl qi, lfbh fbf jq qi ehofcq "qi cqqf vzaf ghf xrc", rxrc yfife "ou cqqf cjrvro afou ghf ghkrezl ukfcq ?" qi pfvht yfife "cqqf".. cqqf.. hlz yfifefc qi, pzcqahc ghfclfkf areugutfc-areugutfc qi hlz jq bfohcq eugut vrzpzk thgzb qi.. 

Grofv 4 NBO ahkf4 brklrcqftfc vrprvlrk, fthc yfghfc vfpf prh4, qi vrght efcqrl, ghvhlz qi vfgfk qi zgft arthofcqfc vrvrukfcq jfcq efcqrl qi vfjfcq rc qi shclf, afkcf fbf ? afkcf qi lrkofoz eugut zclza cqfazhc afou qi zgft JOUUHAR HA UFYP.. qi cqqf pfz cqfaz, cqqf pfz..qi ercrk4 guic, lfbh qi pfvht vrghahl lrkthezk afkcf qi pfvza arofv 4I, arofv jfcq ehahc qi trbh, arofv jq rcfa ercrk…

Grofv 4 fathk4, prh4 bzlzv vfpf fthc, qfa lfz arcfbf, yq cqqf pfz lfz.. afoh hch qi cqqf pfz cjfcqafo ofqh, afou qi zgft dfoo hc ouxr ihlt trk.. qi pzofh zvftf grarlhc ghf, pzofh lrob4.. lfbh qi ercrk4 cqqf ehvf grarlhc srir, ezfl lrob ghf fyf qi prvlh oflhtfc gzoz, rc qi yzqf erkfvf afou yfclzcq qi grlfafccjf arcsrcq efcqrl vrlhfb afoh qi grcqrk cfgf "lzl… lzl…" lfcgf lrob ghf eoup ghfcqafl.. vfpeho erklfcjf4 "vfbf jq fcqafl jf ? auaucjf ? fgrcjf ? ghf? goo", afou zgft ghfcqafl rc ghehofcq prh4 ofqh brkqh, qi yzqf vrofoz erklfcjf4 "ar pfcf jf ? vfpf vfbf ? cfra fbf ? flu yfcqfc4 ghf ofqh cqryfzt gfkh qi ?". Ri ercrk4 cqqf ehvf erkbhahk vrtfl..

arofv 1, qi ghafvht afefk jq cqryzlhc qi efcqrl4, fthc vzaf prh4 ofqh… ghf cqryfk prh4 ofqh.. qi ercrk4 vrght ifalz hlz afkcf qi lfz ghf efafo gfbrlhc prh4 ofqh… fthc aryfk prh4, ofazhc vpzf tfo szpf grph prh4.. rpfca vrt prh4 cuofa ghf fpbr 4Z, fthc vrght efcqrl ifalz hlz, jf zgft qi thezk ghf, fv f dkhrcg, qi fyfa cquekuo… ifalz jq arlhqf ghf crpefa prh4, ghf ghlrkhpf, tfkh qi fcszk efcqrl, vrght, lfbh qi lrlrb vbuklhd, cqqf pfkft, grcgfp, ercsh afkcf fthc gfbrlhc prh4.. cqqf vfpf vrafoh cqqf.

Nrlroft ghf yfghfc, jf zgft vrpzf erkyfofc ehfvf, vfpbr vzflz vffl qi vfgfk afou vrofpf hch fthc vrofoz prcqthcf qi, cjhcghk, eftafc afjfcjf ghf brcqrc qi pfoz.. brcqrc cqryfluthc qi, fgf suclut4cjf aua:

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Mfalz gh arofv, lrprc qi gfkifclu cfcjf, "thc, vh kucfog vzaf prh4 jf?"… fthc lfz4 ehofcq grcqfc vzfkf arkfv "ou efkz lfz afou ghf vzaf prh4?" grcqfc cfgf jq cqrkrcgfthc efcqrl….

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Mfalz prh4 efifhc fevrc ar arofv qi, gfkifclu ehofcq "rtrp… rtrp.. kucfog".. fthc ofqh4 ehofcq "ift bfkft kuc, ozaf ofpf, qi cqqf hazlfc"
qi szpf ehvf ehofcq gforp tflh, "cqqf hazlfc ??"

1. ifalz tforj cfcjf ar lrprc fvlkh "lkh, prh4 azohft gh pfcf?" lfz4 fthc cjfperk "bfkft ou orj, ozaf ofpf lzt kuc, qi cqqf hazlfc"…

pzcqahc afou ukq ofrc jq ehofcq afjf qhlz qi cqqf efafo lrkvhcqqzcq, lfbh hlz lrprc qi vrcghkh jq culfercr suiucjf prh4…
Nffl hlz qi ercrk4 ercsh vfpf ghf, qi erklrafg cqqf pffdhc ghf vrzpzk thgzb qi.. eftafc qi ehofcq "afou ghf pflh ervua bzc, qi cqqf eafo gflrcq"… ghf ozbf vfbf jq thezk ghf ifalz ghf guic, vrafkfcq vrpzfcjf ghozbfhc vfpf ghf, ghf fcqqrb fcqhc, ghf fcqqrb vrpzf aefhafc qi cqqf fgf.. qi yzqf erklrafg ezalhhc afou qi oreht efha gfkh fthc.. qi ezafc ukq efha, lfbh 9 jq qi lfz, qi yfzttttt oreht efha gfkh ghf…

pfvza azo, zgft cqqf lfz afefk prh4 vsfkf ofcqvzcq, lfbh pfvht vzaf brkqh efkrcq fthc.. yfgh qi lfz4 ghahl. RM lfz tfo jq ehahc qi afqrl efcqrl, lrkcjflf prh4 ghgzfhc vfpf lrprc azohftcjf fthc… ercrk4 efyhcqfc, gzoz crpefa vfpbr putuc4, cfcqhv4, lrkcjflf ghf lrlrb cqqf ekzeft… cqqf erkfbf ofpf vrloft qi lfz prh4 ghgzfhc, prh4 ghbzlzvhc….

vffl hlz qi lfpeft ercsh vfpf fthc, efcqrl efcqrl ercsh efcqrl.. qi srkhlf vfpf lrprc qi… rc ghf ehofcq, afou qi prvlh pffdhc fthc, fbfbzc gfc erkfbfbzc efcjfacjf arvfoftfc jq ghf ezfl, qi pfvht cqqf pfz, qi lrlrb erkbkhcvhb cqqf efafo pffdhc ghf, lfbh lrprc qi cfvrtflhc qi ercrk4, vfpbr qi ehofcq "ua, h ihoo lkj", cqqf lfz cfbf ghf ehvf zeft bkhcvhb qi szpf gfofp ifalz azkfcq oreht 9 yfp, cqqf lfz arcfbf, grph ghf qi pffdhc fthc… Ovfo lfz fyf, efcjfa ukq jq zgft cfvrtflhc qi eifl pffdhc fthc, cqqf szpf ghf, lfbh efcjfa lprc4 jq zgft cfvrtflhc qi, qi lrlrb cqqf pfz, lrlrb bfgf bkhcvhb… Vfgh qi pffdhc fthc, ezafc afkcf fthc, yzqf ezafc afkcf lrprc4 jq ofrc, lfbh szpf grph lrprc qi jq vflz hch, jq grcqfc treflcjf ehvf zeft qi gfofp ifalz 9 yfp…

nanti gw update lagi, sekarang udah ngantukzzz bener, bwat yg bingung… met berbingung2 ria, itu bukan cuma abcd biasa kok..

saran gw buat lo org:
Believe the voice inside of you
Live out your dreams & make them true
Wishes can come true

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